Friday, September 12, 2008

Wishing, Hoping, Thinking and Praying

When I was a little girl, probably around eight or nine, my family used to listen to a certain cassette tape in the car whenever we were going somewhere. It was by Wayne Watson, a Christian music artist. I loved all of the songs on the tape, but one sticks out in my memory more than the rest. It was called "Somewhere in the World" and it was about a father praying for his little boy’s future wife:

"Somewhere in the world today
A little girl will go out to play...
And I don't even know her name
But I'm prayin' for her just the same
That the Lord will write His name upon her heart."

I would sit and listen, and I would wonder whether somewhere, some little boy’s parents were praying for me…

Ever since I was really little, I felt sure that I would get married and be a mom when I grew up. And I’m not sure whether this is weird or not, but I remember thinking about my future husband fairly often from a pretty young age. I believed with a child’s faith in God and the fact that He had a plan for my life. I believed that God already had a husband picked out for me, and all I had to do was find him. Every once in a while I would wonder what he was doing, what his life was like. I would wonder what he looked like and what his name was. And when I remembered, I would pray for him during my bedtime prayers.

When I met Daniel, although he had been raised Catholic like me, he had pretty much fallen away from his faith—as had much of his family. I’m sure I will go into more detail about all of this later, but to say the least, he and I had many long and emotional (at least on my side) debates about everything from the authority of the Church to the existence of God to abortion. I prayed for him like I had never prayed for anything in my life.

This may sound silly, but now that I know who my future husband is, I am so glad that I used to pray for him when I was younger. I like to think that even those very general prayers way back then helped. Prayer changes things. Even if you feel funny praying for someone you’ve never met and whose name you don’t even know, try it anyway. I highly suggest it. ;-).

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hello Sarah - I have just found this blog and have so enjoyed reading about you and Daniel. Being married for - forever? - no, only 18 years this month, reading your entries sent me back reminiscing about how I met my husband and our early life together. I look forward to hearing more about the two of you as you prepare to join your lives together as one!
Susan

Tom said...

Hi, Sarah, I'm a married (27 years) Catholic man, currently discerning for the Diaconate, and very happy for you and your intended! I responded to this post because I wanted to specifically congratulate you on praying for your future husband before you had met him. I often advise people to do this, and it's nice to see it pop up on your blog. I hope this is a fruitful activity for you (the blog, that is) and that you keep itup. It's very valuable service!

And may your marriage to Daniel be as wonderful as mine and my wife's has been.

Tom

Anonymous said...

Hi,

I just wanted to say that I used to pray for my future husband as well and wonder where he was and doing at the moment, and when we would meet.

I like the blog!

Robin said...

Hi, Sarah! - I have just found your blog after reading about it in a FOUNDATIONS magazine. Look forward to reading more!
~ Robin

Christine said...

Sarah-

My name is Christine and I'm sixteen years old. I pray and write letters to my future husband everyday. I haven't really told any of my friends or family about it because I'm worried they might think it's weird. My sister recently "accidently" came across my diary and read a letter I had written for my future spouse and told me she thought it was ridiculous that I was writing to someone who I wasn’t even certain existed. It kind of broke my heart and I considered stopping all the prayers and letters altogether, but then I realized that I feel an inclination to pray and write to him for a reason and God Himself must have put that inclination there. I'm so happy to hear that you prayed for your future husband and encourage others to do so!! I hope and pray I end up with a nice Catholic man like your Daniel. =)

God bless and thank you for writing such beautiful posts, I love reading them.

Christine